There are those times, when it feels like the world around you stops turning. It’s an evening, an afternoon, or possibly a night, and you’re confronted with yourself, your life, and silence. What would you do when you don’t have to do anything? (or should be studying but don’t feel like it).
I chose to watch a movie. Called Yes man. About a man who was challenged to say yes to everything proposed to him by other people. It made him very happy. But, 56 minutes into the movie and a few spoons of ben & jerry’s later, I realized that watching this movie wasn’t making me happy. And i question if writing this blog is. I don’t really know what I want to do.
The past days I’ve been talking to people about having a sense of purpose, and how it can affect your life positively. Without purpose there’s really no use in living, except for aimlessly wandering around. So when one of those days occurs for me, I make a list of things I would like to get done for that day, and make sure I do ‘em all before crashing on the couch behind my laptop and forgetting I have a life outside of the internet. Newsflash: writing down that you’re gonna have an 2-hour study session doesn’t guarantee that you will.
And it worries me, it does. But there are other more important things. For instance, I spent the day talking to God, which was amazing. There’s nothing that satisfies me more than feeling his presence, and it’s amazing to just talk with him without struggling to hear an answer. (i refer you to my post; skypen met god, in dutch) Meanwhile the year is almost over and I’m pretty satisfied about my life up until now. But I don’t want simple satisfaction. I want adventure, guts, love, passion. FIRE.
So meet me where dreams turn into to-do lists. Don’t give up on your passions, don’t give up on being you.
You light the fire in my eyes.